Archive for April, 2007

Trust

Posted in Faith on April 25, 2007 by pilgrimramblings

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Trust has been a huge issue my entire life. In my relationships I often fail to feel secure, to attain a level of intimacy in which I feel truly free to be myself and to be authentic in the things I express to others. Perhaps the metaphor of the circus is appropriate, for often I feel that I must present and showcase the things that will somehow make me worthy of affection and acceptance. Really the issue is about control and management, I want others to conform to my expectations, to act accordingly with how I see fit.

Somehow the way I view relationships, whether they be with God or other people, mirrors Israel’s tendency for idolatry as portrayed in the Hebrew scriptures. It is so easy to perform for idols, to placate them and present them with burnt offerings, and often this comes through in my life by the ways I attempt to offer things from myself that will somehow manipulate the way others treat me and look upon me. But the thing that you realize, however painfully and slowly, is that people do not make very good idols. They won’t bend to your will at all times, they will also fail you and not always give the way you would desire them to. God is even worse, because all though people will often act favorably if you give to them often regardless of your intentions, God does not play by the rules. I can’t give anything to him that is not already his, I can’t sacrifice what is not mine. So what the hell do you do with that? Even if I just present myself, and I am a created being, then I have nothing at all to offer. This is where I am most troubled and also hope to be the most at peace. I guess what it comes down to is that I must open myself in trust, to simply receive what God is willing to give.

This isn’t a very profound post, but sometimes the simple things can be the most moving. I just needed to share that with somebody. Peace…

The Battery’s Dead

Posted in Poetry on April 25, 2007 by pilgrimramblings

I remain transparent, open to your suggestions.

Unable to resist, and longing for an abrupt shift. A shift in being.

If you could only heed the call, but I refrain. For I want you to make the first move,

to see you slide your foot across the ground and view its movement, to see the impression that is made.

I wish for your connection, to feel the static between us and to witness the sparks as they fly.

But nothing is created. The battery’s dead.

 

Weekend of Over-Stimulation

Posted in Friends on April 24, 2007 by pilgrimramblings

This past weekend I got to hang out with some good friends for my friend Matt’s bachelor party. We traveled down to Irving, TX and hung out in Ft. Worth (which in my opinion is one of the coolest cities around) and Dallas. I will not go into the details of the weekend but I will say that it was really fun, though we did so much that I feel I must detox over the next couple of days by simply doing nothing! Here are some highlights:

The Flying Saucer (great bar that has Fat Tire!)

Four Day Weekend, which is an improvisational comedy group that is absolutely hilarious, I left with a headache because I was laughing so much!

Milk Chug 2007! My friend has attempted it four times now, and each time ends up with him puking! He finally made it to the trash can this time. If you have no idea what I’m talking about, check out The Gallon Challenge.

Chipotle. After hearing my friend Eric rave about this place for years and being skeptical of the hype, I must now confess that Chipotle is awesome.

Dave and Buster’s. Way too much time spent playing skee-ball and basketball. When your arms start to hurt from shooting the little basketballs so many times, that is a sign that you have gone too far.

Speed Zone, go-carts galore!

Not a highlight but definately noteworthy: a sprained ankle for yours truly. My foot found a pothole while I was chasing a football, the result was not pretty…

Oh well, it was a great weekend and I am definately over-stimulated! Hope your weekend was just as fun…

The Burning Word part 1

Posted in Book Reviews on April 18, 2007 by pilgrimramblings

 

Well, this review has been much delayed but I have read through three chapters of Judith Kunst’s The Burning Word, so today we’ll cover these chapters. The themes through these initial chapters go as such: intimacy, reverence, and curiosity. Let me just say that the first couple of chapters didn’t captivate me, but I can tell that it is progressively getter better and chapter 3 was excellent. And now we’re off…

Intimacy

“Jewish Midrash views troubling irregularities not as accidents or errors or cultural disparities to be passed over, but rather as deliberate invitations to grapple with God’s revealed word- and by extension, to grapple with God himself” (pg. 4) Midrash is a way of study, a pathway of reflecting about the scriptures that deals with the unfamiliarity of the text. Midrash wrestles with scripture, and in this struggle there is an ever deeper awareness that the reader or readers are going toe to toe with God. Remember the story of Jacob and the stranger, they fought and in the end Jacob became Israel. Any true engagement with God does not leave the person unchanged. The emphasis here also implies that there is a constant turning of the text, as we meditate on it we can think of the image of someone looking at a diamond in the light, and seeing the many ways the light refracts off of the stone. And if God lives in the scriptures, then no part of it is devoid of meaning. “Every word, every letter of the text has been put there by divine purpose” (5). No matter how much we struggle to find the meaning, no matter how clueless we are, there is meaning in the text. Midrash calls for us to be attuned to the language, the rhythm of the passage, and to play imaginatively and yet reverently with God’s word. It is an intimate and long relationship, sometimes including a lot of work from us to hear the voice of God.

Reverence

“The Torah, like the ancient Temple, is a place to enter, experience, and revere” (18). The most interesting section of this chapter is Kunst’s description of the difference of how Jewish midrash treats the scriptures compared to how most Christians approach it. Christians normally refer to pieces of scripture as “passages” while Jews mostly call them parsha, or “portion”. One implies movement while the other reminds us of eating. In fact, many of the scriptures give the metaphor of eating scripture, we taste it and consume it and it fills our stomachs. It is a necessity, it is something that vital for our lives. Kunst also discusses the realness of scripture, the importance that it is something that is not vague or abstract, not something apart from our lives, but entangled in the very substance of who we are.

Curiosity

“Perhaps that is the meaning of the burning bush…  that to reveal He must conceal, that to impart His wisdom He must hide His power.” – Abraham Joshua Heschel

Using the image of the burning bush gives us insight into the God we encounter in the Bible. God’s presence “hides” in the text, and each encounter we have with it can be an experience of us being on holy ground. “If I want to come close to the God of the Bible, to step onto the holy ground of his presence, then I must wake up my curiosity and look for God in the strange, hidden, and burning places of scripture. Curiosity is the starting point of midrash” (29). Often the Bible stumps, confuses, and bewilders us. Yet the difficulty of it calls us out. Therefore, questioning is the appropriate response for those seeking to encounter God in the scriptures. In fact, midrash equates questioning with intimacy (33). So any serious student who seeks to gain any wisdom and knowledge should in fact first learn to question, to practice not shying away from the mystery of God. His presence may scare us, it may cause us to be utterly confused, but if we fail to question then we may never find the meaning that we need in our lives.

 

Howard Zinn

Posted in Film on April 17, 2007 by pilgrimramblings

Howard Zinn - You Can't Be Neutral on a Moving Train

 

So last night I watched the documentary “You Can’t Be Neutral on a Moving Train” on the life of political activist and historian Howard Zinn. A few years ago I heard Zinn’s book, A People’s History of the United States, referenced in the film Good Will Hunting. I decided to take a look at it for I was intrigued by the title. I would read parts of it at Barnes and Noble during my senior year at college, always taking a break to view the pages when I should have been studying. Finally, I picked it up last year and I have still not completed it. I think I plan to read it during this summer so I can finally say that I read it.

Anyways, what I have read in the book I enjoy. Zinn is a controversial figure, many people like to say that he is just a radical, liberal, anti- American, unpatriotic, communist, socialist (insert non-conservative ideology here), I guess you can label him however you want. One of the lines that I really enjoyed from this film came from Zinn’s own mouth. He said basically that he isn’t formed by an ideology, but is instead formed by the desire to see people be able to rest, to simply enjoy their lives. Another point he made was that democracy, when truly exemplified, includes protest. There is no way we can extend democracy to others when we only allow the privileged to voice their opinions. Justice and peace must also be markers for a democracy, and continuing engagement in war is directly counter to any true democracy.

I don’t agree with all of Zinn’s conclusions, but I connect with many of the ideas that he has. To write a book specifically from the viewpoint of the oppressed is brave, and I think his honesty in looking at the dark side of American history is a testament to good historiography.

As far as the documentary as a whole, its a little slow in parts and probably is too sentimental in praise for Zinn, but I think that there is some insight into how non-violent protests can effect those involved and help them see beyond themselves for the goodness of a cause.

On my birthday…

Posted in Gospel on April 17, 2007 by anglopressy

a friend I never got the privilege of meeting died. Kurt Vonnegut, Jr. died at the age of eighty-four last week. I was initially introduced to Kurt Vonnegut because reading authors who were all dead was starting to upset me, given that I’d never get to meet and talk to. Now he’s dead. But that doesn’t change the fact that Vonnegut left the world with some wonderful examples of what a good and just world should look like.

Go to a bookstore or library soon and check out one of his many novels.

Grace and Peace,
Jared

Easter Sights and Sounds

Posted in Faith, Journey on April 13, 2007 by pilgrimramblings

I think this past Easter season was by far my favorite, Lent was spiritually exhausting yet rich in lessons I have learned about myself, others, and God. What might seem really odd to some but is normal for me is that I didn’t really read the scriptures more or spend more time in prayer (by prayer I mean time set aside). I think, as Buechner says it best, I just began listening to my life. More than ever, I became acutely aware of my inner desires, the resounding gong of my selfishness, the countless times I have tried to polish this image of myself that I present to others in various showcases. I could go on about how dark my soul is, but then again I don’t want to depress myself nor anyone who reads this any longer.

One of the things gained in this Lenten season has been a fresh outlook on how people form and shape my life, how the voice of God is always speaking but in places I never imagined, how the things I speak are really prayers for myself and for others. Hope longed for, not always achieved, can still be beautiful in and of itself. I think it is a part of God’s inaugurated and yet still approaching kingdom. Dreams are good, they can keep us waiting in times where we are ready to throw up our hands in defeat. I think that is what Christ has showed me this Easter, that hope is good, and it is the best of things at times. I hope in the person of Christ, for his resurrection to manifest itself in my own new life. I hope that people will continue to not give up on me, that they keep showering me with the love of God. I hope that I can contribute to others in a way that flows out of love and produces hope. I hope… 

Also, I wanted to incorporate the music, books, and films I enjoyed during the season that can serve as a backdrop for the things I was experiencing along the way. I got this idea from Anthony over at postmodernegro.wordpress.com

Music:

Derek Webb- basically all of I See Things Upside Down- I Repent, Medication, Lover pt. 2, and What is Not Love were my favorite songs on this album

Denison Witmer- favorite songs were: Are You Lonely?, Finding Your Feet Again, 22, You Could Be Anything, Are You a Dreamer

Rosie Thomas- These Friends of Mine album

Books:

Free of Charge- Miroslav Volf

Telling the Truth: The Gospel as Tragedy, Comedy and Fairy Tale- Frederick Buechner

Following Jesus: Biblical Reflections on Discipleship- N.T. Wright

Film/DVD:

How to Kill and Be Killed- Derek Webb, Stranger Than Fiction, The Departed, Blood Diamond, Adaptation

ALSO

Congrats to Rob on getting ordained this Easter. Rob has been a pastor for a long time, and didn’t need to be ordained to prove it or jumpstart his pastoral “career”. He has been a shepherd to many people, and I am happy to see so many gather around Rob and his family to honor his ministry. Going to OKC was great, I love the community at Fusion for it is very much like a second home to me. Grace and Peace

Midrash

Posted in Book Reviews on April 12, 2007 by pilgrimramblings

In light of my future review of Judith M. Kunst’s The Burning Word: A Christian Encounter with Jewish Midrash, I wanted to give a simple definition of sorts of what midrash is. It is hard to try and pin down what midrash is because by its very definition it is something that escapes full description. So my attempt at a definition is shaky at best, but here we go: Midrash is a type of exegesis, a way of interpreting the scriptures (both Hebrew and Greek) in a way that provides for constant reinterpretation and allows the questioning and exploration of words, phrases, meanings, and structures of given passages. Every word is meaningful since it is God-breathed. Midrash in Hebrew means “to search out”. What is implied in all of this is a playful and yet highly reverent way of turning over and digesting the text, hoping to create continual dialogue over the many meanings of given texts. Midrash study hopes to probe the unfamiliar and foreignness of the scriptures in order to give us a better glimpse into the mystery of God and his limitless possibilities.

Now, if that definition does not help you then that is probably my fault but hopefully that will be remedied through my upcoming reviews. Let me know if you can articulate this better…

(My first review should be Friday over the first 3 chapters, see you then)

Conclusion to Free of Charge

Posted in Faith, Gospel on April 10, 2007 by pilgrimramblings

I think that in the midst of reading and reflecting on this book, I realize that for me to try and give a review does not quite give justice to what Volf is trying to articulate here. Volf’s book is accessible and readable to the average person, and yet what he is trying to do is construct a theology of giving and forgiveness through the lens of Christology and perichoresis. It is a deep subject, and I think that blogging about it has helped me absorb some of the information better. I hope it has been helpful to you.

Well lets move forward. I have already included in my two previous reviews how God gives and forgives, and we have seen how humans give, and now we move on to how we should and can forgive. Instead of trying to track the flow of Volf’s thoughts and lay out his reasoning and exegesis, I thought I would just include some key quotes in the book and then follow them up with some short additions of my own.

Chapter 5: How shoud we forgive?

“We should absorb the wrongdoing in order to transform the wrongdoers” (161). The goal is the hope to end the cycles of violence and create an atmosphere of shalom. Revenge multiplies evil, it doesn’t end it. God bore our sin and we should learn to free other people of sin’s guilt and power.

And yet, “We also shouldn’t forgive exactly as God forgives” (163). As we have seen in relation to giving, God is infinite and powerful enough to take on forgiveness in its entirety, we cannot even grasp this and can only forgive as much as possible. “We imitate God as instruments of God: God gives and forgives, and we make God’s giving and God’s forgiving our own” (165).

In forgiving, our primary focus should be on the other, though we may experience freedom too, we must hope that in our forgiveness the other is released of their debt and freed from guilt. “Forgiveness cuts the tie of equivalence between the offense and the way we treat the offender” (170).  To forgive is to blame, not to punish. So in our very act of forgiving, we are accusing and placing blame but we are not to seek retribution. Our hope should be freedom for all those involved. Christ is the end of retribution. Another interesting marker in this book is the role of memory, and that in order for forgiveness to reach its ultimate state, the memory of the sin must eventually fall into oblivion. “Far from being a victory of evil, consigning forgiven wrongdoings to oblivion- done at the right time and in the right way- denies evil the honor and the glory of memory” (176- Italics mine). Volf does add that this discernment must be used to realize the time and way we can begin to forget the wrongdoing, for if there is potential for harm then we should remember the offense.

The act of forgiveness is always a social relationship, and because so it must also involve repentance. If the one being forgiven does not accept his guilt, then true forgiveness has not yet happened, it just hangs in the balance. It is like a package that has been rejected by the receiver, it has been given but not received. The hope and goal of forgiveness is that the forgiven will repent, will seek restitution (not by compensating for what has been done but in gratitude and longing for peace), and that both sides will finally be reconciled to one another.

Chapter 6: But how can we forgive?

“We forgive by making God’s forgiveness our own. And even then, we don’t forgive the fact of someone’s guilt, the so-called objective guilt. God has already done that. We help remove the offender’s feeling of guilt in regard to us, the so-called subjective guilt” (196). We only have the right to forgive because God has done it already, he alone has the right to forgive and has exercised that right. By Christ indwelling in us, we are able to act as little Christs and are given power that we did not have prior to our encounter with God. That power involves us being able to forgive, for we cannot forgive on our own, but with Christ we are able to forgive.

What I liked about Volf’s concluding chapter was his admission that we are in fact finite forgivers. Our forgiving is faulty, provisional, and tentative; God’s forgiving is faultless, final, and definitive (220). Therefore we must go about our forgiving in humility and in faithfulness to the God who is the ultimate forgiver.

So what are your thoughts? Anything that you think is missing or anything that stands out to you?

Too many books

Posted in ramblings on April 9, 2007 by anglopressy

Here’s my first post. Let’s see how this goes.

Lately I’ve had the opportunity to start reading several books. While I was in Uruguay I finished two of them, Tom Perrotta’s Little Children and Samuel Wells Improvisation: The Drama of Christian Ethics. Other than that I’ve picked up

Rupert Shortt’s God’s Advocates

Kent A. Van Til’s Less Than Two Dollars a Day: A Christian View of World Poverty and the Free Market

John J. Davis’ Three Views on Creation and Evolution

Ben Witherington’s The Problem with Evangelical Theology: Testing the Exegetical Foundations of Calvinism, Dispensationalism and Wesleyanism

Paul Wegner’s A Student’s Guide to Textual Criticism of the Bible: Its History, Methods and Results

David E. Fitch’s The Great Giveaway: Reclaiming the Mission of the Church from Big Business, Parachurch Organizations, Psychotherapy, Consumer Capitalism, and Other Modern Maladies

Hugh Laurie’s The Gun Seller

Richard Baukham’s Jesus and the Eyewitnesses: The Gospels as Eyewitness Testimony

I’m sure there are more that I just can’t think of right now, but it seems that that’s more than enough for now. I’ll start with the two that I’ve finished.

Tom Perrotta’s Little Children is the story of thirty-something parents reflecting on their suburban lives. In almost every case their lives are far from what they’d expected. There’s Todd, the high school/college football superstar who’s become a stay-at-home dad; Sarah, a once sexually ambiguous feminist, now mother of a three year old a girl, with a husband living a secret life on the internet; and Larry Moon, a police officer forced to retire because of mental stress, who is obsessed with a newly freed child molester living in his neighborhood. The thing to keep in mind with this novel is that the title is not merely a reference to the fact that the adult characters are linked to children because they have them or are obsessed with them. These suburbanites are children. There is a point when each character has to come to terms with reality, something they’ve all been avoiding in one way or another. For Sarah it’s that she was not being the mother that she should have been. For Todd it’s that he was still trying to be the prom king who pleases his wife in wholly superficial ways while remaining ultimately unfaithful to her and their son. Not every epiphany is as clear or positive as those two, but I must say that the varying degrees of realization are a healthy representation of real people. Not everyone will be liberated by realization. In fact, things being as they are, many will never realize that their life needs some kind of scrutiny. I would recommend this novel, along with Perrotta’s Election, which intersects with Little Children thematically.

Now Wells’ Improvisation:

This is an interesting book on ethics by a man with pretty close ties to Stanley Hauerwas. In fact, Wells wrote the first doctoral dissertation on Hauerwas’ work. Improvisation encompasses narrative in a considerable way, given that the book is a presentation of ethics using many terms and concepts from the world of improvisational acting. Wells begins by saying that improvisation is not “off the cuff”. We, like improvisational actors, are not stranded on a stage with little or no preparation for the tasks. Improvisation is more about being obvious than spontaneous and unique. I suppose you could say that what Wells is recommending is that the church learn as much about its heritage, from scripture and history, as it can and establish a life that reflects that. This stands against the way that the church has dealt with ethics recently. In my experience people have challenged any and every ethically proposition with the most extreme challenge that can be imagined. Take for example the desire to be non-violent. When someone says that they don’t want to commit an act of violence, even in self-defense, the response is usually, “Well what if someone broke into your home and tried to rape and kill your family?” I suppose that’s a valid question on some level, but not in that situation. In fact, that’s a terrible way to view ethics. If we sit around and imagine hypotheticals that would drive us into a frenzy, we’ll no doubt come to the conclusion that there are no definite expectations put on us in certain situations. But, what Wells tells us is that if we commit ourselves to non-violent living and thinking when someone hasn’t broken into our homes to murder our families, which is the majority of the time for most people, we will be prepared for the crunch situation in which we are challenged to do the right thing. As anyone who has interacted with other people should know, the hardest thing to make or break is a habit. And that is what we are called to do. The koinonia (shared experience) of Acts chapter two was not a spontaneous, heroic manifestation of the Spirit, it was a steady, dependable life-long manifestation of the Spirit’s transformational power. Now, that’s not to say that there are no spontaneous situations where we need the power of God, there are. What Wells is saying is that our responses to those moments is defined by the way we live day-to-day. It’s the juxtaposition of hero and saint. Heroes thrive on those life-changing moments, saints live to serve and suffer over the long haul.

Now to the books I haven’t finished yet:

God’s Advocates- This is a series of interviews with some great minds in theology, philosophy, ethics, politics, etc. on the resurgence of the spiritual in the public sphere today (e.g. Rowan Williams, Stanley Hauerwas, Samuel Wells, Alvin Plantinga, Miroslav Volf, etc.).

Less Than Two Dollars a Day: A Christian View of World Poverty and the Free Market- This is a tremendous book that looks at what market economics is and how it effects the poor.

Three Views on Creation and Evolution- This is a multiple perspective book debating a topic that has become pretty divisive over the last few decades. I’m hoping to find something worth reading.

The Problem with Evangelical Theology: Testing the Exegetical Foundations of Calvinism, Dispensationalism and Wesleyanism- Witherington sets out to critique three of the most influential ideologies in American Evangelical circles. This is a call to these different traditions within the Protestant church to sola scriptura, a call that is much needed.

A Student’s Guide to Textual Criticism of the Bible: Its History, Methods and Results- This is a primer on Old and New Testament textual criticism.

The Great Giveaway: Reclaiming the Mission of the Church from Big Business, Parachurch Organizations, Psychotherapy, Consumer Capitalism, and Other Modern Maladies- I’ve only read a few pages of this book, but it seems like this will be a defense of post-Modernism in much the same vein as Carl Rashke’s The Next Reformation: Why Evagelicals Must Embrace Postmodernity which was a good book but just didn’t resonate with me because I think that, while post-Modernism detracts from Modernism, it does so in a way similar to a teenager pointing out their parents mistakes; they’re right, but they have their own problems.

The Gun Seller- This is a fantastic novel. It’s part spy novel part comedy. If you like the shows 24 and Scrubs you’ll like this novel.

Jesus and the Eyewitnesses: The Gospels as Eyewitness Testimony- This is kind of an extension of Kenneth Bailey’s essay Informal Controlled Oral Tradition and the Synoptic Gospels (there’s an abbreviated version of this in his Finding the Lost: Cultural Keys to Luke 15). Here’s a link to the essay, which is very provocative: http://www.biblicalstudies.org.uk/article_tradition_bailey.html

That’s all for now.

Grace and Peace,
Jared